Has everyone been enjoying the internet lately? Heh. Its all bad stuff. They've won. Yes, the real terrorists are running free, running the whole show and we've bled and watched and waited and bled more and watched more until our Groucho Marx eyeballs sprung from their frames. They viciously grabbed our attention, rifled hungrily through our empty pockets seeking anything that Wal*Mart could stack into their job lot weather-less caverns and left us by the side of the dirt road in the heat searing, barren desert brush too beleaguered, too unhealthy, too weak, too empty of spiritual energy to find our way back because ... the gates to the heart of the matter are sealed with nuclear crazy glue.
We're still alive however. But it is an alive that is like living in a movie set, the Truman Show perhaps, the infrastructure for life itself is there, but nothing works underneath the wall paper of a sky with mannequin characters forever locked into place. A suitable stage set would be that early Twilight Zone episode concerning the Sterno junkie strangely surviving radiation in a fake model town destroyed by a good nuke testing.
The recent Adam Mayes murder kidnapping episode took us far back into the old moonshining days of inbreds and foliage overgrowth where dummies are still at the still, banjos and preachers and relatives of relatives' friends and their third cousins of ex-spouses and (no traceable relation because its too complicated) hangers-on quikstop cashiers having their say in the press, he said, she said, no one is guilty and everyone clamors for a part, the mothers-in-law of the former spouses of bigamous Zombie creatures slithering through wet, uneven terrain where no child has a father and all the children are reproduced in the exact image of their toothless ancestors combined, emerging from quicksand by the miracles of Jesus.
Why IS this we ask? It is because the square mileage of our continent allows holdovers from an earlier era to exist in geographies unclaimed by urban sprawl. Its always been a government problem. Combing, cleaning out, dumpster diving though these ancient closeted holdovers remains a Fed priority to this day. Why throw funds at education or municipal improvements when you can simply shine the white hot planetary stage spotlight on its unprofitable worthlessness?
Cockroaches are not allowed to exist in a flattened world armed with singing camera cellphones reviewing their bank accounts and foreclosure proceedings by the hour inside armed gated communities anchored to select chain store strip malls. From time to time, we are forced to look, as if the "civilized" populace needs another Foie Gras treatment shoved down their esophagus as warning to all to get with, and stick with, the system. Of course, there is that additionally tasteless re-election component involved. Their eveready tactical opener, Caveman Nugie, knows all about murder in the backwoods, interesting how he was drafted from the dusty archives a mere days before the Foie Grassing. You will note in the Adam Mayes episode, no mention was made of performing the usual criminal search practices such as collecting cellphone records and laptop seizures. The Mayes event appears to have been entirely an "on foot, door to door" extraordinarily closed mouth arrangement. Likely this is why cleaning out and cleaning up Waziristan has been such a nasty problem as well. Can you imagine? How can the land even be considered for Wal*Marts and development property leases when there are uh, those insane infestations of swarming insects crawling through the undergrowth up and down the mountains (apparently immune to Roundup, and highly likely that is due to zero percent purchasing power)? They sought to draw us in on their horrific difficulties during the BP blowout, spotlighting shrimpers and the abundance of backwards, makeshift lifestyles to no avail, the greater issues blocked the effort and were quietly cancelled due to the impotency of the punishment. A more effective bang for their buck would have been to rip apart the seemingly flawless Anthony family and expose the massive infestation in Orlando's angelic state of make-believe sub-urbanity. Ah but no, that would not have worked in their favor, we can be sure such dumpster diving would have exposed the poisoned roots of all that appears covetously shiny, lush, clean, nutritious, expensive and healthy.
It would have come out that every man remains an island unto himself and no expensive product or perfectly plasticized contortions of lifestyle, unmarred and ziplocked into purring vehicles under 24/7, 365 day monitoring will ever have effect on the infestations ... anywhere. If they really meant to do the job effectively, they should call in Wildland firefighters and the backhoes, radio the command planes and cordon off the region, all of which tells us something about the fundamental reason they do not. They don't because these spotlit events are the Foie Gras method of keeping in line those suburbanites, exurbanites and urbanites who are not absolutely yet convinced or growing less convinced the wonderful new world isn't actually so wonderful.
That it isn't so wonderful is an understatement. It is useless diversion barricading authentic experience. All of it wrought long ago by the evil insights of Bernays where realty is contorted by words and imagery into the facade of human advancement. Surely he was a card carrying CFR Jetsons fan. Surely his followers felt things were not happening quickly enough to satisfy their own payment plans and upped the program after a brief intermission for Kool smokers and college educated middle class homeowners before abruptly unveiling the new, improved date-stamped Ponzi pyramid.
During that intermission, many of us reading here were selected to enter this journey, at this time, in this place, on this very planet. And this group, this band of concerned volunteers without memory of our transported altruistic goals, matured along with Earth's inhabitants as if we were a natural part of the program except ... there was always a lingering doubt of its viability, especially as it repeatedly rubbed against the grain, a soft reminder of the forgotten mission, the appearance not at all being what it proclaimed to be, that the species itself seemed deeply flawed preventing the homo sapien from its ability to develop spiritually, to see and know in that way that seeing is wisdom and knowing is acceptance, dis-empowering the individual to achieve any greater purpose other than placing all sensory powers upon the activities and appearance of mannequins, zombies and spotlit personalities, adopting each others' roles, characters, allegiances and opinions - automatically. It is stated frequently "This is life", as if it is a condition, a helpless syndrome of vacuous and painful wandering from nowhere to nothing and simply must be endured until the big prize of magnificent rapture arrives. It matters none the rapture doesn't take place, there is always some bible thumping, high moral ground justification encouraging the great sea of homo sapien true believers to press on, endure more. Should any of those enduring grow weary while pressing on, the length of the average lifespan of the human being is comforting in its brevity fully allowing the tragic possibility any greater potential remains eternally unrealized, unknown, lost in whatever continental universe of in-curiosity and regulated behaviors exist among the retarded faux civilizations doomed to ennui and suffering.
Our mission can be remembered at any time, especially when you are not trying to remember, rather, standing in the welfare lines or gathering flints and interesting rocks in the desert during an oncoming sandstorm or if you are a musician, evading the work of a composition, even though you know it will center you. It will come back to you in a variety of forms, mostly it is a taking-off of sorts, suddenly airborne, and you will realize it had nothing to do with your wants or what you think about it at all, and everything to do with letting go. You cannot call it forth, it will alight when and where you'd least expect.
There is a Force in the Cosmos, of that we can be sure, outside of us, that takes care of us, it is love seeking a receptive vessel. As proof, you can do nothing civilization terms usefully productive for as long as possible and see what happens. Let it flow through you and radiate it outwards at every opportunity. Love, compassionate, seva-love is the remedy needed now.
The downpressors may have won the round, but they will never rule the Force. May the Force be with you.

81 comments:
god damn right, motherfuker, you are being helped.
brilliant. at least we're not hillbillies! merely debt and theater slaves. I dont know what is a sicker distraction - the backwoods kidnapper, or endless reports on which celebrities might get married - the mother lode, the holy grail, being brad and angelina.
I read a report about how in Columbus Georgia, they are building a prison just for veterans you know, to deal with that demographics special needs. I bet! At least its not us! (yet)
I dont have time to be disgusted by it anymore. my husbands business is slowly going down the drain. who is he if he is not the president of his company? so that he never has to find out, he intends to deplete every resource he has; home, savings - the fail safe being my Chickory which in that case, will cease to be chickory but a slightly less hideous episode of hoaders with a tv in the background at all times. Do you think if I asked really politely, that the Honorable mr John Corzine would give me a little lagniappe to tide him over so I can keep my little she-wolf den in tact? Yes i do realize I have just described a "first world problem". Don't despise me, readers.
You always have such a wonderful mix of, dare I say it, "hope and tragedy" - too bad that book was already written and it turned out to be the playbook for the wetikos.
Love to you, desert fox.
Hello Nina......what in the world is of real value?....the relationships we have with each other and our connections to this planet are poisoned by shallow materialism and tweaked moral leadership. How often are we still and quiet and not assaulted by the noise and distractions of a disintegrating world and the struggle for survival...
May the force reconnect us to the source ....and love stops bleeding and we start healing.....
Here you nina,think that's what I have been doing,to much trying to remember and not enough letting go,,
Do you think they won that round,I would say no,,,,they want world war 3,,truth community with all it's tireless little workers has diverted it ....also everything the tyrants touch seems to go wrong for them,absolutely everything....and the people haven't even got up yet,,,,I suppose it's how willing each of us is to actively embrace what we are all responsible for,,,it's inevitable the tyrant will be removed, how quickly is up to each of us individually..... If humanity as one entity got up tomorrow and decided its time to remove the tyrant, by the end of the day the tyrant would be gone,,,,,,
As a community the louder we are,I suppose the more ears we reach,,,
Wish John lash would say something,
Respects to all
Yes, tune in to the Force.
- Aangirfan
Chickory, are you telling me the rockstar is a victim of MFG's vanishing act? No, no, no, no, no! If indeed this is the case, things for you have taken a rather interesting turn during which you may very well see a humble awakening and beautiful meeting of the minds, it could all be for the best. Listen to the winds. There is a reason you and he have come so far, from Sedona to now and now further. I believe in you. You can do this.
(I wonder how much work is involved in renaming everything signed thus far to desert fox?)
Make our day Aang!
PS: I have a very special photo of a very special photo you might like, when you get a minute please email me so I can send it to you. artlifewestatgmaildotcom
Hello Zepheri, thanks for visiting, Welcome. You are in the best of company.
My dear Terrance, I wish it were so. I really do trust it can be. It is as if ... maybe ... our suffering is not yet great enough to warrant appreciation of what it is to be still and silent. I'm working though this too, right now, and there are constant distractions for which I blame the internet for holding us hostage to attention deficit. It is a dread thing to feel you have to be rigid and rude in order to be at peace, isn't it.
Beautiful comment my friend.
Wow, neil, pause for reflection!
World war would only temporarily refloat the sinking ship of fools. You'll note the captains are at desperation high tide when even the Queen reenlists her endorsement. From all outward appearances, they've won, but winning isn't everything or everyone and certainly not game over regardless of the immediate state of affairs. Its a mere chapter in the humanoid story. Their power source is fatally flawed making it impossible to go the distance required.
They only win if we leave the theater. I'm still here and have no intention of leaving.
Thata girl.
BTW, your comment Amarynth, has thousands of metaphors. Its the domestic violence counseling doctrine, easily charted, kept up long enough, which doesn't have to really be a long time, perhaps imbedded deeply enough, it always ends badly for all involved. Always. Ending in death of one or more. Therefore, someone must leave the theater for a different outcome.
In broader terms, "leaving" is an activity widely open to interpretation. Heh, I'm not leaving either, but I can't say I am always here.
Turning rivers chasing streams
Moonlit temples life's heart dream
Nourished open roots go far
paradise clusters instant sparks
Starry oceans heavens weave
Golden waves vibrate and be
Sublime chords Express devout
Devotion pours from north to south
Outward inwards all around
Wholesome rising sense profound
Raising goodness wielding truth
Harmony flows on heavens flute
..peace..
Seems to me that we are either energetically available to what you describe so eloquently, the movie set, the theater, or we are energetically available to 'the force'. I am not able any longer to dabble on both sides of the equation --- old and crotchety methinks. It is difficult to become passionately involved in the issues of the day.
We cannot leave the theater .. unless death steals in .. but we can be aware of it. Awareness changes all.
Love to you all.
And love to you amaranth
Sorry for spelling your name wrong amarynth..
Am still getting used to this I phone thing,everything is really really small and it keeps changing words for some reason.
Respects to all
I feel for you neil. Its ridiculous isn't it? I won't even go on the web on my phone. Oh, it goes to the web just fine, but making and receiving calls is a different story. Note how these phones are called smart ... classic backwards pressure. Square peg in round hole, etc.
I Still have no computer nina,So am making do with this for the time being,,,,am getting used to it a bit,,,
Speaking of geographic deficiencies:
... While Louisiana tops the prison rankings, it consistently vies with Mississippi -- the state with the second-highest incarceration rate -- for the worst schools, the most poverty, the highest infant mortality. One in three Louisiana prisoners reads below a fifth-grade level. The vast majority did not complete high school. The easy fix of selling drugs or stealing is all too tempting when the alternative is a low-wage, dead-end job.
More money spent on locking up an ever-growing number of prisoners means less money for the very institutions that could help young people stay out of trouble, giving rise to a vicious cycle. ...
Quote from the Times Picayune series via cryptogon.
neil, do you have viewing settings that could enlarge the text?
I'm thinking it must be a difficult effort to read blogs on a phone too, unless you can change the view in your favor. Maybe there is a zoom setting in the manual?
From Bho:
proof of the connection between all species aka onelove
Ha ... How close we are to one another. I sent Bho the elephants (because I follow what happens to the African Wild life) yesterday. How nice to see it here!
I'm with those that use a phone for phone calls and use a computer for computer stuff. If my phone goes 'on the internet' I get very nervous.
Amarynth, gratitude goes to you too! Its an amazing piece and fits with many more. Please include me next time or better, share it here so everyone can see.
Thanks again.
Amarynth, even though we recognize neil is benefited by the web on his phone, it seems to me that using the web on one's phone would eat up whatever peak minutes any plan dictates. Unless someone has a no frills prepaid plan, they are financially penalized for all those extra minutes spent browsing which as it usually goes, are rarely clocked by a web user. It appears that the smartphone technology is designed to do exactly that - exceed and extract more from the user's pocketbook. This clever system seems to be the real meaning behind a "plan".
Note to neil: do consider browsing during off peak hours if you are locked into a "plan".
It's ok nina, it's on a wifi connection from downstairs when looking at websites,,,,,pluss have got 1gig of data on the 3 g thingy,,,,I really don't understand it in one way but I seem to be able to get around ok on the other,,and my brilliant son is their to help me when I'm lost...have recently over the weekend realised at the bottom of most sites their is a place to change the view and view the whole web page as on a computer,,and zoom in on things,,,,which is pretty handy............so it's ok really...computer would be easier though
We are technical people so, we have too many technical toys as it is and continually have to simplify. The one piece of technology that I enjoy and would not want to be without now, is my ipad for books. First I thought it would make my eyes tired after hours on a computer anyway, but the back lighting is good and my eyes don't get tired. It is also much easier than a book to transport to a dentist's office or something and it keeps its own bookmark.
It is just the nicest thing to spend the last few pennies on paypal (if there are any pennies left) and get the next book that is on the reading list, even cuddled up in bed at night. So, bookstore time is for proper browsing and enjoying the vibe. The ipad, ... man ... I enjoy that thing!
Actually if the screen was a little bigger I could probably make do with this,I don't use a computer for large tasks,its only really too check out the blogs the news and buy materials for my job,give me a while and I will get it worked out,,,,
Amarynth I think I may get a refurbished I pad at some point that would be perfect,,,,and I saw that with the elephants,, going to pay their respects to a brother of there's ...that is a beautiful thing
how is a ipad easier to transport than a book. Just curious.
I smash up my limbs and body, drive out perception and intellect, cast off form, do away with understanding, and make myself identical with the Great Thoroughfare.
I love books too, Anonymous, really love 'em. Amarynth's ipad endorsement suits her lifestyle. She's not the first I've heard of into it heavily, either. Travelers and students like them a lot because it beats carrying around extra reads. For example, have you ever worn an overweight backpack ... not pleasing when you are rushing to make a plane or class or train. Freakin' hassle!
Try to be cautious with the smashing business. Brutalizing the envelope isn't necessary.
I too love a book,and have spent lots of money buying books that I really couldn't afford,I suppose an iPad is a really just a combination of book and computer,and in England it's expensive but the net book thing I used to have lasted 18 months and is beyond repairable, need something,so eventually I will get an iPad.....I can't see the problem with it....
I was not dissing amarynth or protesting technology itself, but the new economic and sociological realities brought about by the machines. I am just an old reclusive luddite not enamored with technology.
Maybe there ought to be a little bit of the Luddite in all of us. Let’s not forget that what the Luddites feared most was not the machines, but the effects of those machines on their lives and families. We do well to remember that when machine came into conflict with man, it was the machine that won.
To each his or her own choice is OK. To keep the show open requires mfg's to show us the latest and greatest things for us to purchase. Just curious about her statement is all.
Scrap (forgot to sign in with my comments
this is quite funny.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xmTTzCAALc
Scrap
Here you scrap,,,,
You certainly fooled me Scrapsan, but I stick to my premise regardless of the person, which is the blend of to each his own, do no harm.
This thing about technology, its just a word, meaning very different things to each person using it. How the word is used, varies with the individual. The downside is alarming, the upside is useful. Personally, the word actually disgusts me since Aang has been shining a light on technology's child slavery, simultaneously I use technology to do what needs to be done. At this very moment, you and I are using advanced technology to communicate here.
love, nina
"dissing amarynth or protesting technology itself, but the new economic and sociological realities brought about by the machines."
Precisely why I asked the question and what I eluded to in my response. It is the price we pay for our convenience of a lighter load. That's how we are programmed by the sellers. Even if our horror at the abuse to the laborer making those products isn't enough for us to just say no. You can see by what the folks above stated and by your posting we are willing to overlook those insults to humanity for our own intents.
Scrap
It's true though we don't need all these machines,we pretty much have all that we need when we come into the world,and does any of this technology really make life any easier,,,,,I use it,but won't be sad to see it go if it did......scraps you are a purist
Like that Skywalker Luke Nina?
The Farce is with us,
All right?
Might Fight, if Pushed
On My Wii Wii
Button, Red
Instead
It's Blue
Pillow, Zillow, Rags and Riches,
DHS and Barnyard Snitches,
May and June the force be with you
2 to Tan and Go,
Surfing...
;-)
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
You express the angst so well, Nina. As the earth travels into this cosmic ribbon of "fluff," and FBI agent flees his captors, a mother shoots her children then herself, the cretins buy up the Trevon targets, the derivatives are even more on the brink, and the celebrities attempt to find a patch of skin that they have not already exposed, I wonder why I am feeling like I'm in line to be another dead Kennedy. I felt compelled to purchase a Geiger counter with which to test my garden soil and food, which is a real joy, as you can imagine.
There are commercials inside the commercials when I want to watch some youtube video or other. I am getting sick to my stomach while I wait for the atrocious interlopers to end. Mined and mind-fucked by the internet advertising vampires, against my will. I identify with the girl with the dragon tattoo.
The Force is not particularly with me, I'm afraid. I know it's there, but right this minute I am out of touch. Still feel good about you guys, though. hang in there.
FA, you are not alone. The pressure is on from dawn to dusk now and barges into our dreams. Read the TAO, its the necessary stabilizer. I can send you my copy.
I am grateful for your honesty.
Have decided to just give up nina,over the past few months have been fighting with universe,just trying to hold my head above water,,,think its time for me too just drown away into nothingness...stop fighting the universe and accept what ever it throws at me whole heartedly,, would of really of liked to have got a place for my son to live other than his nan and grandads but that's not happening....
Anyway respects
Also that relationship breakup has left me no other choice other than to sever all ties to ever having a relationship with a woman again,looks like although I have loved every woman I have ever been with,none of them have ever loved me,,,so I have never experienced love in this world,it's only ever been fake love,where I really do love them and they pretend They love me,until someone who they do really love turns up,,,,so can't write a poem if I have never experienced true love ,,,,I always thought every pOem I ever wrote was crap anyway,,just felt I needed to do it at the time,,,
Anyway what does it matter
Oh and sorry for smothering your website in my personal problems
On my way to rescue my Spirit Tree from the latest desert rodent onslaught I listened to this emotion weaving tapestry of vibrations:
http://www.amazon.com/Dawnseeker-Sleepthief/dp/B000FI8LZ8
Eurydice and Afterthoughts carry me away to special places of the mind for sure :-)
So I hiked out to my Spirit Tree and created some effective yet simple rodent thwarting " technology " :-) The little guys are climibing up into the tree somehow and clipping off the branchs. I put a plastic funnel around the trunk, facing down to prevent them from climbing up it.
The wind was strong today and the sky was blue with interesting clouds floating around. I heard on the Weather Channel that Vegas was getting very strong winds. How about you Nina? On a previous trip to the area where the Spirit Tree is I took this photo which I call Migrations as it shows Buzzards on their way north for the season:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/hotspringswizard/7072839153/sizes/l/in/photostream/
Hiking back from the Spirit Tree I passed this circle I had made last year in what I call Hidden Valley. I titled this one Sunset Contemplations since its a wonderful place to walk and ponder things of this life and the desert rocks are especially striking in the late day light :-) The caption for that photo, " Infinity is everywhere, as is what you seek. No need for destinations, just appreciate the journey " :-)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/hotspringswizard/6822637034/sizes/l/in/photostream/
Also last year I found a new hotsprings source where I hike at Deep Creek and I've been working lately with cement to capture the two flows ( one 116 degrees and the other 117 degrees ) such that I can run the hot water through small pipes in order to make a small soaking pool. Its a great little spot with Deep Creek flowing right next to it.
The hot sources are clear, clean fresh water from Mother Earth and I brought some home to drink, having a bit before bed at night to remind me of that special place, and I decided to name it Ori Hotsprings ( its not on any maps or in any hotsprings books ). I am going to burn that name into a piece of driftwood from down there and put it above the hot sources, along with one of my clay heads and a special stone from Lake Mojave of course :-)
And lastly here is a photo I took from the top of Turtle Mountain which I titled Infinite Awareness, with the caption " The eye of truth is always watching you ". Its an abstraction of the sun through dust from a wind storm. The circle of the pupil I did not put into the photo, it just appeared while I was working the pic. Maybe we really are being watched :-)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/hotspringswizard/6961109881/sizes/l/in/photostream/
Life offers up its challenges, but we must always endeavor to see the good around us because its always there in some form, and in the ways we can, do good deeds for those with us on this special journey, and in doing so you will find yourself on one of the paths to true happiness.
Time for bed now and a little reading, a book called Choosing Simplicity :-)
Neil your poems are unique and special. Hopefully you will find yourself feeling better and will be inspired to share them again :-)
Thanks wizard,,,,don't think that's going to happen though,,,,it's looking like homelessness for me,it's either stay here round my mum and dads in a town where I'm hated or go homeless,have been homeless before but never in a cold country,would of been ok with a yurt or something but this latest firm have been working for it seems to actually cost me money to go to work,will give it another month or two to see what happens,but it is looking like homelessness,which is ok I can handle that....but definitely all poems have to stop as I have never experienced love with a woman,and never will,,,,
We have to ask, why is it the most creative people among us repeatedly fall into depths of despair? HSW seems to have a good handle on it, but not everyone has access to his fantastic geography and resourceful self-esteem. Neil.. I just have to say to you what I said to freeacre, which is "You are not alone."
If you have to lurch yourself into homelessness, so be it, its not the worst at all, perhaps taking your suffering to its natural peak is your sure fire way to enlightenment. It was for me in many ways that are inexplicable unless you have been there and experienced the journey from the ground up. Amazing breakthroughs take place when you let go.
Two items for you to reconsider seriously today:
basic fundamentals
and
about love
You read them before, read again and this time remove the speakers and any thought of comment.
Stay-in-touch. Do not throw out the baby with the creative bathwater! You are reacting to events which were likely falsely perceived and falsely transmitted to begin with. Entirely normal response to unnatural events.
Mr. Wizard, we had real live sandstorms. It was nothing like I imagined, the sand is a superfine dust, not grit at all, it shows in brown layers left behind, everything had to be sealed tightly, the winds are still rattling infrastructure this morning. Locals are used to it, it was nothing for them, but I was fascinated, kept running outdoors to see it, the skies were exactly as I showed in my post, a huge roiling dark cloud overhead worsening as the day went on into night. Winds are forecasted to ease off shortly ... whew.
You can really get a feel for what they experience in the Middle East, obviously any hi-tech wars have to be sidelined in such fierce winds because exposed technologies would be obliterated by the silt.
Visiting your links now, always a highlight, thank you so much.
Actually nina am quite looking forward to homelessness,I thoroughly enjoyed it before and will this time,,,,but it's the fake false pretend love that leaves a puke feeling in the pits of my stomach,I would have liked to have the real stuff,,,,obviously universe feels that I shouldn't see that .....fake false artificial love is horrible and not needed.so I turn my back on it , and remove all thoughts of sex or companionship from my mind to show universe that no I will have no part of that......without having true love with a woman I haven't a true depiction of the wide expanse of love in its entirety so I shouldn't write anything about it and won't...
But I have a good knowledge of dealing with liars cheats,so I can write about that
Couldn't see the first link nina....
Anyway respects
Also a few weeks ago I had a vivid dream of this beautiful beautiful woman radiating every essence of my limited understanding of love,set in a beautiful place somewhere,i immediately wanted to have sex with her, she smiled and made 100s of sea urchin darts go through my hand,I stopped thinking about sex and the darts vanished and my hand was better, we then wandered around playing and happy,and that was all that I remember,,,it has stuck with me ever since.....
Am sorry for being completely mad nina,,,
And in no way do I mean any disrespect to any woman anywhere,,,
Neil, regarding finding a companion that really resonates, there are many ways to go about achieving that, and there is never any surety to it as only time will tell what you truly have as a relationship with someone.
I got married back in my early 20's and we stayed together for eight years. As it turned out, she was not my soulmate and I definitely made the right choice in getting out of that contentious relationship.
Since I live a relatively simple life there were not much opportunities to meet women, so about five years after my divource I put a dating add in the local newspaper. It was free except for the fee for retrieving messages. My brother told me stuff like that never works but I carried on.
My wife had read dating adds every so often but had never responded to one before, until she saw mine and she like what it said, and my phone message info. So thats how we got together and I have been graced with my wife Darcy as a companion/lover/soulmate beyond what I had hoped that I would ever find. She is truly an angel that came into my life, at least thats the way I see it :-)
But I do understand your situation Neil, finding an enduring, solid and fullfilling connection with someone is for sure not something found by all who look for it. Actually after getting divourced from my first wife, and in terms of what I went through with her, I was contemplating just being single the rest of my life, but I'm sure glad I made the effort to look again, because of all that came into my life after meeting someone who really makes me smile and feel content, everyday. And we have two wonderful daughters too!
The day we met, on our first date we went to Deep Creek Hot Springs ( DCHS ). Three years later on a hike to DCHS we decided to get married. Thats one of the reasons those springs are very special to me.
So Neil, there are good/solid/honest/loyal people out there with which to build relationships, but with that said, I understand your sentiments. For about a year after the end of my first marraige I was so despondent that I could not see during that time how I could ever feel truly happy again. Time moves on, life changes, so who knows, maybe somewhere down the path your traveling someone may still come into your life who fills you with joy and inspiration. I know something like that is hard for you to envision as a possibility just now.
There are wonderful people around us always, as well as the fantastic beauty of nature and all its wonders. Any sharing with good folks is something that will truly and consistently help our frame of mind, and our outlook on the world too. Maybe in time one of these people, you may find, will become a rewarding companion.
I wish you well Neil and know its a difficult time for you right now.
Well I'm off to Ori Hotsprings with the family tomorrow to do some cement work, make my hotsprings sign on the driftwood, and will be trying out the hot flows in the little soaking pool for the first time. I better get off to sleep and get some rest as I'm looking forward to tomorrows adventure. Where we are going is just up the creek a little ways from this beautiful emerald colored pool :-)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/hotspringswizard/6734194021/sizes/l/in/photostream/
Neil and others. good read.
http://dark-mountain.net/blog/how-societal-collapse-begins-with-a-broken-heart/
Scrap
Thanks hsw and scrap,I will be fine....could do with some fellows like yourselves over here,and am sorry for pulling you into my personal tragedys,,,will put them down and carry on,,,things are a lot clearer now,,,,,
Thanks people : )
Scrap, I'm all for talking about appropriate technology ... and doing things right just because we can. When this battle is won, we'll sure all have time and space to talk about finally doing things right, the right way and what that means and how that can manifest.
In the mean time, found this on WRH today and it is all over - Sing it Out!
No No Keshagesh
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKmAb1gNN74&feature=player_embedded#
Yeah! I know we have to be suitably 'spiritual and ceremonial' during the full moon, but this is going to be my contribution! Loud and with some dervish dancing!
amarynth, At first, I saw mountains as mountains and rivers as rivers. Then, I saw mountains were not mountains and rivers were not rivers. Finally, I see mountains again as mountains, and rivers again as rivers.
Thank you and also for the Buffy St Marie
and one for you too and all who find heaven here.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oo6bf88iHHU
Scrap
Devotional wild ecstatic harmonys to you amarynth
Verses on the Faith Mind by The 3rd Zen Patriarch, Sengstau
Part 1:
The Great Way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. When love and hate are both absent everything becomes clear and undisguised. Make the smallest distinction, however, and heaven and earth are set infinitely apart.
If you wish to see the truth then hold no opinions for or against anything. To set up what you like against what you dislike is the disease of the mind.
When the deep meaning of things is not understood the mind's essential peace is disturbed to no avail.
The Way is perfect like vast space when nothing is lacking and nothing is in excess.
Indeed, it is due to our choosing to accept or reject that we do not see the true nature of things.
Live neither in the entanglements of outer things nor in inner feelings of emptiness.
Be serene in the oneness of things and such erroneous views will disappear by themselves.
When you try to stop activity to achieve passivity your very effort fills you with activity.
As long as you remain in one extreme or the other you will never know Oneness.
Those who do not live in the single Way fail in both activity and passivity, assertion and denial.
To deny the reality of things is to miss their reality; to assert the emptiness of things is to miss their reality.
The more you talk and think about it, the further astray you wander from the truth.
Stop talking and thinking, and there is nothing you will not be able to know.
To return to the root is to find the meaning, but to pursue appearances is to miss the source.
At the moment of inner enlightenment there is a going beyond appearance and emptiness.
The changes that appear to occur in the empty world we call real only because of our ignorance.
Do not search for the truth; only cease to cherish opinions.
Do not remain in the dualistic state -- avoid such pursuits carefully.
If there is even a trace of this and that, of right and wrong, the Mind-essence will be lost in confusion.
Although all dualities come from the One, do not be attached even to this One.
When the mind exists undisturbed in the Way, nothing in the world can offend, and when such a thing can no longer offend, it ceases to exist in the old way.
When no discriminating thoughts arise, the old mind ceases to exist.
When thought objects vanish, the thinking-subject vanishes, as when the mind vanishes, objects vanish.
Things are objects because of the subject (mind); the mind (subject) is such because of things (object).
Understand the relativity of these two and the basic reality: the unity of emptiness.
In this emptiness the two are indistinguishable and each contains in itself the whole world.
If you do not discriminate between coarse and fine you will not be tempted to prejudice and opinion.
To live in the Great Way is neither easy nor difficult, but those with limited views are fearful and irresolute; the faster they hurry, the slower they go, and clinging (attachment) cannot be limited; even to be attached to the idea of enlightenment is to go astray.
Just let things be in their own way and there will be neither coming nor going.
Obey the nature of things (your own nature), and you will walk freely and undisturbed.
Part 2:
When thought is in bondage the truth is hidden, for everything is murky and unclear, and the burdensome practice of judging brings annoyance and weariness.
What benefits can be derived from distinctions and separations?
If you wish to move in the One Way do not dislike even the world of senses and ideas.
Indeed, to accept them fully is identical with true Enlightenment.
The wise man strives to no goals but the foolish man fetters himself.
There is one Dharma, not many; distinctions arise from the clinging needs of the ignorant.
To seek Mind with the (discriminating) mind is the greatest of all mistakes.
Rest and unrest derive from illusion; with enlightenment there is no liking and disliking.
All dualities come from ignorant inference. They are like dreams or flowers in air: foolish to try to grasp them.
Gain and loss, right and wrong: such thoughts must finally be abolished at once.
If the eye never sleeps, all dreams will naturally cease.
If the mind makes no discriminations, the ten thousand things are as they are, of single essence.
To understand the mystery of this One-essence is to be released from all entanglements.
When all things are seen equally the timeless Self-essence is reached.
No comparisons or analogies are possible in this causeless, relationless state.
Consider movement stationary and the stationary in motion, both movement and rest disappear.
When such dualities cease to exist Oneness itself cannot exist.
To this ultimate finality no law or description applies.
For the unified mind in accord with the Way all self-centered striving ceases.
Doubts and irresolutions vanish and life in true faith is possible.
With a single stroke we are freed from bondage; nothing clings to us and we hold to nothing.
All is empty, clear, self-illuminating, with no exertion of the mind's power.
Here thought, feeling, knowledge, and imagination are of no value.
In this world of suchness there is neither self nor other-than-self.
To come directly into harmony with this reality just simply say when doubt arises, 'Not two.'
In this 'not two' nothing is separate, nothing is excluded.
No matter when or where, enlightenment means entering this truth.
And this truth is beyond extension or diminution in time or space; in it a single thought is ten thousand years.
Emptiness here, Emptiness there, but the infinite universe stands always before your eyes.
Infinitely large and infinitely small; no difference, for definitions have vanished and no boundaries are seen.
So too with Being and Non-Being.
Don't waste time with doubts and arguments that have nothing to do with this.
One thing, all things: move among and intermingle, without distinction.
To live in this realization is to be without anxiety about non-perfection.
To live in this faith is the road to non-duality, because the non-dual is one with trusting mind.
Words!
The Way is beyond language, for in it there is no yesterday, no tomorrow, no today.
Like a pouring of harmony or a series of beautiful piano notes .....Thanks scrap
The love link, raw. This should get anyone interested into the text. Please let me know if there is a problem.
http://deepintoartlifewest.blogspot.com/2012/01/never-ending-appetites-for-self.html
Have read it again nina,But thing is,is ruthless coldness,it's the coldness of rejection through underhanded spiteful behaviour and to the extremes that people go,,,,I'm ok with it mostly,But over the last few days I seem to be beating myself with that,,,did read over on an origami link that things like this can come up being the eclipse thingy with other star stuff going on,,not using that as an excuse though,,i should know by now to not beat myself over what are really just lessons,,,but I do from time to time,,sorry nina
Be glad you are done with it neil. You know better and that is the reason you hurt. Genuine lessons are painful, but only if you allow yourself to dwell in the pain. Only you, not anyone else, has the ability to move on. As long as you live, breathe and are not physically damaged beyond the ability to function, there is and will always be more to come. Salvation lies within, it is entirely up to you how slowly or quickly you heal. You can get out of the morass of suffering anytime you want.
Climbing streaking emanated
Chanting feathers high
light that stirs all inwards
Drawn across the sky
Fishes in the water
Rivers past the moon
The sunlights golden temple
Hearts open and attune
Pulling dreams across the fields
Filling hearts till full
Multiplying pattern shapes
Sounds that break down walls
Vibrating inwards rising through
Calling in the breeze
Heart of earth in all of us
Liberating all that be
..peace..
Hello Nina.... Looks like jp morgan's 2 billion dollar loss is growing to 30 billion.....things are unraveling ....
The Rue Morgue
It was a dark and stormy night
in the rue morgue always a fright
a victim stuffed into a flue
from Edgar's mind did issue
he did muse you see
of ravens, opium, nocturnal themes
The city watch again calls all is well
- where in hell?
and wonder about a trail of banana skins and nut shells
but soon a lttle booze
then to their huts, for a strangled wheezing snooze
many ages after
two smallish twisted figures pad the street
pass each other but do not greet
one a president of, the other almost,
de la republique Francaise
they shamble on, the moon shines on le revire Seine
one a loser the other cloaked in shame
Lautrec told a woman she would find the Seine cold if she jumped in
not concerned a suicide, not a sin?
If you search the ouerve of Bosch
and study keenly, there are ancestors of le kozy and le dominique
their noble faces looking out at you
from generations long gone away
look out the goat will drool
when exposing fools
when publishing the secrets of the elite
like the hall scamper of dominique
Le dk off to apply for a job in a hotel
Le kozy must serve madame Merkel
yes a notice, a butler is wanted
appraised and admitted
he is told right now you must
serve the madame
a little cognac to steady the hand
then a stick and gong
he does command
another cognac? oui, oui
he carefully strikes but a silence not a bong
he calls forth a noise with his voice
a squawk, an urp, maybe a croak then
Madame Merkel descends from high above
he helps her into a chair with care a little love
powerful imaginary ones are gathered from here and there
die frau graciously toasts them all
le kosy of course takes part
he must salute Madame and drink each phantom's potion
he breathes deep then carries on
nervous now caution, caution
but wits are addled words are slurred
a wine she requests, one he suggests
a sup creates a mad out of balance dash at the stair
a hop, a skip, a desperate lunge
a neat dance very fair
a pirouette around the banister
a recovery from utter disaster
then mon Dieu he utters
- you are looking younger Madame Merkel
sacre bleu who does care
I D'Artagnan do dare
or I Louis the fatter
mad mad as a hatter
seeing his glass is empty
its thrown away, it does shatter
to bed to bed all do scatter
finally the soiree is ended
to his nest he does wobble
happy trails to all, our spirits do not hobble
Once a bride of Christ, a nun
but it did not rescue this sheltered one
from not blessed, unholy ground
the religious point and gossip sometimes a giggle, a sniff
holy thoughts we offer to le Bon Dieu
a holy remonstration for you
but you arranged the demonstration
then.... came.... the choice of Soeur Sourire
dominique a nique a nique
Some fabulous stuff coming from John lash Thomas Sheridan Thomas Malone,don't know why John removed one of his crew talks though,,
This trying to not be attracted to women just doesn't work as over the past few days their attractiveness has been multiplying by ten every day,so will just have to carry on as normal I suppose,,,
Sorry for being stupid people. : )
Thought I would add,mr lash said about mr highs reports that they may not be 100% correct,and they could be misleading if looked at in a rigid manner i really dont think cliff high is intentionly trying to moslead anyone he is just interpreting the data i look at it as an integral part of experimentation open to growth on the interpretation
,,,we have never tried this before and it should be looked at thoroughly,mr high is definitely not suffering messianic syndrome disorder,
What ever any of us bring to the table in our utmost integrity is worth looking at, that is my humble opinion,,, and if mr lash ever visits over here,,,, he needs to know,together we are going to do this,we are going to remove a very very nasty old tyrant,,,
Deep deep respects to all,,,.and a big smile for you nina : )
Neil .. to my thinking, these two gentlemen really disappointed with the names that they so casually put in one camp or another - without knowledge and without evidence and I dare to say .. with a motivation behind there.
I have written to Lash before, about this. He will hear from me again. Sheridan I don't know.
High has given his usual harsh response with a clear underlying existential pain. Those that really know his work, are aware of this aspect. http://halfpasthuman.com/midsummer.html
Aargh ... Lash! Sheridan! shame on you! you are doing the same thing that is so prevalent amongst psychopathic scientists of the day, in the business of deceiving. You are not doing credit to the consciousness scientists of our day, and in that, you have this one person and I bet there will be more, that is questioning your bona fides. You cannot casually put everyone in the same camp, good god .. you cannot put a tsarion and a wilcock in the same camp. What is your intent?
The agenda of the two gentlemen would be best served if they go and read their psychology and figure out the concepts of groupthink, vs the thinking processes of independent, free and sovereign human beings. You gentlemen have disappointed me and I will put forward a different 'classification' for you by email.
There is so much good in here - but the clear rubbishing of others without knowledge of their work, unfortunately makes the whole thing play a wrong song!
I have to agree with Amarynth on this. There seems to be an epidemic of personal self-absorption in some areas of the blogosphere. Many have valuable POVs and info to offer but are unable to acknowledge that none of us have the complete picture in totality. All need to be able to say "I don't know" in full sincerity where applicable. That's just "the way it is".
I still find the articulation of our processes and situation expressed here (by Nina and all) to be the most deeply resonant.
respects
One last word from me - in terms of the web-bots. They exist, it is common software technology of our day - although I don't like the name - the programming around interpreting the results of the data gathering of the bots (consider them 'data gatherers' or 'data miners'), is of a particularly high standard and in terms of pushing the envelope of data mining and programming, highly intelligent as well as artistic, creative work.
It is seminal work of our day because this has never been done in the field of linguistics - in one language - and the bots deal with many language sets. So, if you have something that has no precedent, you don't always hit it on the mark in terms of analysis of results. Figure a tarot reader .. a beginner vs a master. We are at the beginning of the curve in this method of interpreting changing linguistics. As we all know, words carry a very powerful energy. I personally call Clif's work today's version of the Tarot of Many Words. The bots gather the words, they are spread, and then Clif interprets. The technical and linguistic interplay of this very new work fascinates me intellectually and spiritually. It certainly is not simple, one-dimensional elevator speech work.
OK, I'll be quiet now.
I am not really one for rubbishing other people's work either amarynth,all of us make mistakes myself probably more than most,I too love Michael tsarrion and the years of effort he has put in also David icke and countless others,,,,but I also see the same trouble as mr lash and mr Sheridan,it is as though we are defenceless against these common garden psychopaths we give them to much credit,,,, we shouldn't do that,,,,I think that is what mr lash and mr Sheridan are trying to put across,,, even though it may of sounded arrogant,,,,,anyway ,I don't know (said in full sincerity). : )
Amarynth please don't be quiet,you brighten up everything like a sun ray or something..bho does too
One thing for sure in my opinion,our good brother cliff high sets up a fully focused intent,and every time he posts something on hph,I have tingly feelings and am excited much the same as I get over here on mrs beautiful nina mr lash bho and various other people blogs especially lord visibles,,,,,,that definitely accounts for something,,,,,,
Don't miss this show stopping break from Dangerous Minds
A pity, oui, there are more like her than like us.
No way ... I need something else after that - need mouthwash for my brain or something.
Always loved Carl Boudreau's combined monthly astrological chart. He is a careful and exact speaker and this is a little long - an hour and not elevator speech style. If you have an hour to look toward June - stone walls and teeth-grinding revolutionary steps, beyond gridlock, beyond the status quo ...
The one comment that came through for me: "We are no longer emotionally able to go on as before".
Have we ever been able to go on as before,I suppose it all leads up to the inevitable outcome from which ever way you look at it,myself all I can go on is the ebb and flow of energy in my own life,and utilise that to the best of my abilities....John lash and Thomas Sheridan permit the use of killing in a sort of black sexual magic,,,myself am more Buddhist where I sit in myself and will not kill anything not even a fly...
What was that quote,,,to kill one man is to kill all men,but i suppose if attacked in the heat of the moment and whatever attacked was accidentally killed,that would be permittable but it would be nessesary to do all in the individuals power to leave all life intact As anything else in my opinion would not be right,
Preferably in a liberated condition as that is what each body is for,,,,, I don't care much for arguing in elaborate caste systems of superior intelligence,I'm more of a get the job done with the tools presented at the time,
The death of the system is the only outcome I am looking at,,,as everyone is a victim of it,and hinged from the conditions that have been imposed by it even though there are people that seem to of undertaken it upon themselves to commit extremely evil acts I see them as working from a completely
Disconnected place,,,,,they are weak and do not know how to use the body as a vehicle for liberation,,
I am trying to learn,,,,
One thing though,,,I don't like occulted hidden snidey snake like behaviour,where people can't say what they really mean,,,and in my experience are actually playing a game of one upsmanship,,,,to massage there intellectual superiority ,
Anyway just felt like saying that,,,,,,
A cause for concern
The Precipice of suffering
Uncontainable confusion
enforced struggling
Incapacitated minds
Deviated waves
The Perversion of control
Contaminated gaze
Deprivation and diminishment
Controled subverted task
Divided whole circumference
Each a living part
But binding spark of paradise
Released into the sense
Drawn in liberation
Natures medicine
..peace..
Out of Chaos - Humor
He told me and I listened
a few years ago
there was a terrible scene on this spot
a commotion, a riot
it seems a small group were in the court market
a leader dressed in a coat of brown
seemed upset, something – see their fruits, I frowned
then looked, they stink putrid, awful
but, the merchants shook their heads, smirked
and to their business did return not a bit concerned
what what where is my ring - what
oh someone knocked it to the floor odd that
you all being wise gentlemen in black hats
they back again in their heads putting numbers together
producing something - nope, never did, never will
Hey pish watch me rob this rube
hee how, a scratch or two, then with reserve
he looks with honest eyes, plies his soft words with great concern
near by a market with cattle bawling, goats and sheep both bleating,
birds fluttering
it is said these sellers were the hardest working
the most dedicated in the yard
rigid forms they followed funny accoutrements did wear
if in public, they could display a little prancing
a weird depressing jerky dancing
comes of wedding your cousin... beware
now more yelling - get the hell out
the one in the brown cloak flays about
he now has a lash to hit those who delay
how dare he shout give him a smash on his head
one of thugs stood up to do just that
but the shouter had some friends and one pushed back
he and another fellow who looked like him - a twin
made a good pair, the leader lashed about the other did kick bums - when raised a bit
thru the crowd they did flit
the others loosely grouped around to watch, to protect
chairs flying, tables over, gnashing of teeth, faces of hate
coins falling all round
that sound will draw a baser crowd
someone grabbed a goodly one’s poke
a greybeard cried as if stabbed in the throat
he received a swish across the head and a kick in the rear when over he bent
now a jumble of wriggling bodies
grabbing about - their curses they shout
now a fist punching, a ear is bitten
a dreaming? – but what a screaming
I have never seen him so mad
John told Matt, I thought I'd die laughing
people outside cluster by the doors, looking
smiling kids push thru and join the merry throng
another’s greybeard pulled, a rather chubby feller
kicked from behind and lashed on an ear jumps into the air
a spiral, and a squawk
kids and the elders jump here and there
now the elders in utter despair
turn upon each other howling, call the Gendarmerie
sobbing, sobbing, no dignity
more money flying, crash bang - what was that odd noise, a click click
the stifled giggle of an angel trying to stay angelic
one quirts on the other kicks
there is old zeke a font will mumble, full of quotes
slips and wails when butted by a goat
prone he contemplates the cosmos
in a pile of goat droppings - now the meaning is hmmmm, heh
here comes old eli rushing past, money in a towel, all is chaos
but oh what fun so many panchos
oops there he goes into the air
he flies by fast but not fast enough a crack he gets across his head
but he is moving too fast for the kicker
now watching this terrible scene, fingers trampled, curses thrown
where once clipped roundels were caressed and blessed
Now terrible wails, real swords and maces
comes the Romans glad to be of help
with a vengeance they pitch in
a little to merry, why the grin
some talk about stones, and ves, and ves
Vespasian - that’s the name
yikes, I’m off to the hills
I hear he will offer employment building the coliseum, so long
I don’t like heights, fear to my core
don’t fancy lions either I hear they really bite and roar
Now this I tell yee Jim, me being an honest sea-faring man and all
some can have joy and peace, a slight bit of the dull
me and me mates do prefer chaos and humor
captain flint does to and ee but a parrot
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